Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I am a scale-a-holic
So, I weighed again today. 194.6. Still going down. I ate some cookies today at work, though, so I probably gained it all back...because that is the way this body rolls! It is totally emotional/boredom eating. I have to get out of that classroom before it makes me crazy!! 4 days!!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Saturday Weigh-In
195. It is a loss. Thank goodness. We were constantly on the go yesterday. Went to a fundraiser pancake breakfast. Took the twins to the playground. Attended a baby shower. The house showed yesterday amidst all of this, so a super sonic house cleaning took place since we only had about an hour's notice of the showing. It was pretty much crazy to try and get house showable in less than an hour...and then they were 15 minutes early. Anyway. I don't think I ate too bad yesterday. I had 2 pancakes for breakfast with coffee. For lunch, I just had some finger foods from the shower. Little pimento and cheese finger sandwiches and some pinwheels and some strawberries. The worst part was probably the punch, so whatever. Bill grilled some jalapeno deer sausage last night for supper and we ate it with some pepperjack cheese slices and some garlic bread crisp things that we get from the bakery at the grocery store. I did breakdown and buy a fat burner. I don't have any high hopes for it, I just need something for a mental psych out to get me out of this slump. We will see.
Friday, May 21, 2010
My Day Off
Well, I took a personal day today to relax. Our personal days do not roll over from year to year, so I wasn't gonna let it go to waste, and after the year I have had, I feel like I deserve it. I THOUGHT I was gonna get to relax. But, no. I got an email from my realtor yesterday that someone might be showing it on Saturday. So, guess what I have been doing. Not relaxing, that is for sure. I have been cleaning like a mad woman. I must admit, though. It has been reaaaallllly nice to be home in the peace and quiet with no one yelling MOMMY every 2 seconds. I am still not moving anywhere on my weight loss. Bill and I walked 2 nights this week. One night we walked 4 miles, the next 2 miles. We got a late start and it got dark and the kids were at home. We were just walking around our cul-de-sac. Since then it has been raining, so we have not done anything. It's a start. Anyway. Weigh-in is tomorrow. We shall see.....
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Make sure your weight-loss goals are realistic
***I found this and cut it into my blog....I love this advice!***
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/weight-loss-goals/MY01265
By Donald Hensrud, M.D.
In many things we do, it's important to have goals, and people often have goals for weight loss. This usually revolves around a specific short-term goal of losing a specific number of pounds, which makes some sense. However, there are some important things to consider related to weight loss goals:
■Have realistic weight loss goals — Many people have unrealistic goals in terms of the amount of weight they would like to lose. Some people aim for a weight they haven't achieved for many years, perhaps the weight they were at in high school. While it's important to have lofty goals, if you're unrealistic it can make it difficult to achieve more modest goals. I often see people who don't achieve an unrealistic goal, throw in the towel, and gain back all the weight they lost. Don't take for granted any amount of weight loss, it's better than gaining!
■Focus on process goals — Weight loss is an outcome goal — an end result. It's important to have a good method or process on how to obtain that goal. The outcome results from changes in the process, i.e., changes in diet and physical activity. So, one strategy to achieve a good outcome goal for weight loss is to have a good plan and achieve process goals in diet and activity. Setting a goal of losing 100 pounds without having a good plan on how to do it is like setting a goal of making a million dollars and not having a good financial plan. Examples of process goals in diet and activity are eating one more serving of vegetables daily or walking 30 minutes daily. Process goals can change over time as you achieve them.
■Emphasize long-term lifestyle changes — A short-term weight loss goal will only be helpful if it leads to long-term goals such as keeping the weight off. People often look at weight loss and weight maintenance as separate things. In other words, people sometimes feel "once I reach my weight loss goal, I can relax my efforts". This usually doesn't work, because when you relax your efforts you may go back to previous habits in diet and activity and the weight comes back on. Instead, weight maintenance is just an extension of weight loss. The habits that will help keep the weight off are the same ones that helped to lose the weight, which is why we emphasize sustainable lifestyle changes. Therefore, for long-term weight loss don't make changes in diet and exercise that you can't keep up indefinitely — but don't underestimate your ability to change either.
■Improving health is the primary goal — The best goal in my mind is to improve health. So — this may sound unusual when discussing weight loss — if you make beneficial changes in diet and activity, your health will improve, even if you don't lose a pound. But paradoxically, by focusing on process goals in diet and activity, it can be easier to achieve the outcome of sustained weight loss. For more on goal setting see sections in the book.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/weight-loss-goals/MY01265
By Donald Hensrud, M.D.
In many things we do, it's important to have goals, and people often have goals for weight loss. This usually revolves around a specific short-term goal of losing a specific number of pounds, which makes some sense. However, there are some important things to consider related to weight loss goals:
■Have realistic weight loss goals — Many people have unrealistic goals in terms of the amount of weight they would like to lose. Some people aim for a weight they haven't achieved for many years, perhaps the weight they were at in high school. While it's important to have lofty goals, if you're unrealistic it can make it difficult to achieve more modest goals. I often see people who don't achieve an unrealistic goal, throw in the towel, and gain back all the weight they lost. Don't take for granted any amount of weight loss, it's better than gaining!
■Focus on process goals — Weight loss is an outcome goal — an end result. It's important to have a good method or process on how to obtain that goal. The outcome results from changes in the process, i.e., changes in diet and physical activity. So, one strategy to achieve a good outcome goal for weight loss is to have a good plan and achieve process goals in diet and activity. Setting a goal of losing 100 pounds without having a good plan on how to do it is like setting a goal of making a million dollars and not having a good financial plan. Examples of process goals in diet and activity are eating one more serving of vegetables daily or walking 30 minutes daily. Process goals can change over time as you achieve them.
■Emphasize long-term lifestyle changes — A short-term weight loss goal will only be helpful if it leads to long-term goals such as keeping the weight off. People often look at weight loss and weight maintenance as separate things. In other words, people sometimes feel "once I reach my weight loss goal, I can relax my efforts". This usually doesn't work, because when you relax your efforts you may go back to previous habits in diet and activity and the weight comes back on. Instead, weight maintenance is just an extension of weight loss. The habits that will help keep the weight off are the same ones that helped to lose the weight, which is why we emphasize sustainable lifestyle changes. Therefore, for long-term weight loss don't make changes in diet and exercise that you can't keep up indefinitely — but don't underestimate your ability to change either.
■Improving health is the primary goal — The best goal in my mind is to improve health. So — this may sound unusual when discussing weight loss — if you make beneficial changes in diet and activity, your health will improve, even if you don't lose a pound. But paradoxically, by focusing on process goals in diet and activity, it can be easier to achieve the outcome of sustained weight loss. For more on goal setting see sections in the book.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Weight This Morning
Well, this morning I was down to 196. This fluctuation is baffling me. I know it is natural. But this inconsistant? Really? I am going to call tomorrow to get my appointment with my OBGYN for a followup to all of my bloodwork. I am not looking for a quick fix. I just want something that works for me, and I have exhausted all of my resources within my means trying to figure out what is best for me.
I wish I could get my husband on board 100% with this whole healthy eating thing. He WANTS to be, but when it comes down to it, he refuses to give up the "nabs". I can't make him see that even the Cheese-Its and Chex-Mixes aren't as "healthy" as he wants to believe. He is "one of those" who can stop drinking coke for a day and lose 5 pounds. So, he has this justification that he is within his healthy weight, so he should not have to give up the snacks he enjoys.
Thus the journey to transform my FAMILY into healthy eaters hits a roadblock everytime we go to the grocery store. Here I am, trying to buy healthy for myself and the kids, and he screws it up. I NEED for him to convert to this healthy lifestyle as much as I need for me to. I LOVE healthy snacks. And I think my kids do to when they ask for them. But, what 3 year old is going to choose carrots over check-mix? Not many.
I have a long raod ahead of me. And for now it is pretty lonely.
I wish I could get my husband on board 100% with this whole healthy eating thing. He WANTS to be, but when it comes down to it, he refuses to give up the "nabs". I can't make him see that even the Cheese-Its and Chex-Mixes aren't as "healthy" as he wants to believe. He is "one of those" who can stop drinking coke for a day and lose 5 pounds. So, he has this justification that he is within his healthy weight, so he should not have to give up the snacks he enjoys.
Thus the journey to transform my FAMILY into healthy eaters hits a roadblock everytime we go to the grocery store. Here I am, trying to buy healthy for myself and the kids, and he screws it up. I NEED for him to convert to this healthy lifestyle as much as I need for me to. I LOVE healthy snacks. And I think my kids do to when they ask for them. But, what 3 year old is going to choose carrots over check-mix? Not many.
I have a long raod ahead of me. And for now it is pretty lonely.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Today's Weigh-In
198. WTF! I mean, really. WTF! I have not eaten THAT bad this week. I have been running around crazy, in fact, with our Outdoor Classroom at school. I am officially at rock bottom. I really do not know what is goin on here. I am gonna be calling my doctor back Monday morning for a follow up and see what he suggests from here. This is ridiculous. Right now, I am internally beating the shit out of myself. My brain is running circles around itself trying to figure all of this out. What is wrong with me?
Don't Quit
When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down,
And you feel like the biggest failure in town.
When you want to give up just because you gave in,
and forget all about being healthy and thin.
So What! You went over your points a bit,
It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit!
It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change.
It's learning the skills to get back in your range.
It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now.
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."
It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal.
You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace,
If you summon the will to get back in the race.
But, often the struggler's, when loosing their grip,
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip.
And learn too late when the damage is done,
that the race wasn't over...they still could have won.
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow,
but facing each challenge will help you grow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.
When you're pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit,
If you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit!
- Author Unknown
I am a sucker for motivational quotes, poems, etc. Now, if I could only make myself take them and run with them.
And you feel like the biggest failure in town.
When you want to give up just because you gave in,
and forget all about being healthy and thin.
So What! You went over your points a bit,
It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit!
It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change.
It's learning the skills to get back in your range.
It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now.
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."
It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal.
You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace,
If you summon the will to get back in the race.
But, often the struggler's, when loosing their grip,
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip.
And learn too late when the damage is done,
that the race wasn't over...they still could have won.
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow,
but facing each challenge will help you grow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.
When you're pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit,
If you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit!
- Author Unknown
I am a sucker for motivational quotes, poems, etc. Now, if I could only make myself take them and run with them.
Only One Pound
Hello, do you know me?
If you don't, you should. I'm a pound of fat,
And I'm the HAPPIEST pound of fat that you would ever want to meet.
Want to know why?
It's because no one ever wants to lose me;
I'm ONLY ONE POUND, just a pound!
Everyone wants to lose three pounds, five pounds, or fifteen pounds, but never only one.
So I just stick around and happily keep you fat.
Then I add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem to notice it.
That is, until I've grown to ten, twenty, thirty or even more pounds in weight.
Yes, it's fun being ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT, left to do as I please.
So, when you weigh in, keep right on saying, "Oh, I only lost one pound."
For you see, if you do this, you'll encourage others to keep me around because they'll think I'm not worth losing.
And, I love being around you - your arms, your legs, your chin, your hips and every part of you.
Happy Days!!!
After all, I'm ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT!!!
- Author Unknown
I found this on someone else's blog and needed to re-post it. Very appropriate.
If you don't, you should. I'm a pound of fat,
And I'm the HAPPIEST pound of fat that you would ever want to meet.
Want to know why?
It's because no one ever wants to lose me;
I'm ONLY ONE POUND, just a pound!
Everyone wants to lose three pounds, five pounds, or fifteen pounds, but never only one.
So I just stick around and happily keep you fat.
Then I add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem to notice it.
That is, until I've grown to ten, twenty, thirty or even more pounds in weight.
Yes, it's fun being ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT, left to do as I please.
So, when you weigh in, keep right on saying, "Oh, I only lost one pound."
For you see, if you do this, you'll encourage others to keep me around because they'll think I'm not worth losing.
And, I love being around you - your arms, your legs, your chin, your hips and every part of you.
Happy Days!!!
After all, I'm ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT!!!
- Author Unknown
I found this on someone else's blog and needed to re-post it. Very appropriate.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Reflecting
I have had a lot on my mind lately and I am finally at a stopping point to reflect on some of what I have been throwing around in my head. I want to lose weight. I really do. I have all the tools....healthy food, access to a pretty decent gym, outside support. So why do I not just dig in and get it over with? Am I afraid of failure....again? Yes. Am I not good at setting priorities? Yes. Am I weak? Yes.
I love food.
I am not sure when I went from a very healthy, conscious eater to one who eats just to eat. No matter the emotions....positive or negative. But unlike any other addict, I can't just give up food. My livelihood depends on it. I grew up on a farm where we grew pretty much every vegetable native to our region, and ate fresh veggies and fruits all year long. I love fruits and veggies...aside from a very select few, I love them all. My family hunted, so we also ate deer meat along with the usual chicken and beef and fish/seafood. I was taught to clean my plate, as well as to "try" everything that was cooked whether I thought I liked it or not. Because of this, there are few foods that I absolutely refuse to eat or try.
When I went off to college, of course, food choices changed just a wee bit. As a child, my parents provided us with fairly healthy meals for our main meals and we rarely had "junk food" even in the house. We always ate breakfast, I took my lunch to school, and supper was usually pretty balanced ,and we alwayas ate together at the table. But, once I got to college, I somehow blocked out the healthy eating lifestyle I knew and began making those not-so-good-eating choices that left me carrying a few extra pounds by the end of my freshman year. In high school, I danced on a competitive dance team, which kept me in fabulous shape, but once I got to college, I slowed down drastically, and all of a sudden, the discipline I had known somehow had dissappeared. I was working in the athletic training department keeping crazy hours with the various teams, and eating when I could....on top of my studies.
Then there was the boy. The love of my life. When you are in love you do all kinds of crazy things, and things to you know better than to do, you do anyway. I got pregnant. We got married. I gained weight. I had baby. Weight stayed. We were young, married, and with a baby, and still in school. Thus began my journey of the million yo-yo diets.
After college, we moved eight hours away from everything we knew to try and make a life for ourselves. I knew no one. My husband traveled, and I was stuck in a town by myself most of the time with a toddler. Neeless to say, my eating habits did not improve.
Fast forward to the present. Here I am. 32 years old. Married and 3 children that I adore with everything that I have in me. I am still 196lbs. I am fighting it everyday. I am losing everyday. Why? Because I have no willpower. I start off the day with the greatest of intentions, and by 10am have shot them out the door.
So, I am searching for all the right answers. I have been to the doctor, thinking something really is wrong with me and that he can give me the magical advice to get me going. But, all of my bloodwork is normal. Which to me says....it is all in my head. I am sabotaging myself. I am my own worst enemy. body, mind, and spirit. I came across a blog that had some strategies to keep myself in check with my eating habits, and so I am going to "borrow" the main point so that I can reflect on what they mean to me.
Permission to Feel
I keep my feeling bottled up. I am not very good at showing emotion. I am working on it every day. I am a happy person, for the most part, but there is, deep inside me, a lot of welled up negativity that I wish I could release. One day I will. I am working on that.
Staying in Touch With My Emotional State
I am going to try and be aware of the emotions that trigger me to eat, as well as what I am eating.
Make Taking Care of Myself a Priority
This means taking care of me. I cant be the best mom/wife/friend/teacher/etc if I am not healthy. And that means getting enough sleep, eating healthy, exercising regularly, and keeping my emotions and stress levels in check
Forgive, Assess, & Learn from Slips
I am human. I am going to fail. I need to forgive myself, forget it, learn soemthing from it and move forward.
When Triggered Reach Out
I really have a big problem with this one. Asking for help. I am very independent. I am not good at admitting my weaknesses and asking for help to get through a particularly rough patch.
So. Here is my weight loss journey. Hopefully I will find a whole new me along the way. I am going to try and blog at least a couple times a week. I wish I could be like these super bloggers who blog every day, but that is just not reasonable for me. So, I will do what I can, when I can. And that will have to be good enough.
~LA
I love food.
I am not sure when I went from a very healthy, conscious eater to one who eats just to eat. No matter the emotions....positive or negative. But unlike any other addict, I can't just give up food. My livelihood depends on it. I grew up on a farm where we grew pretty much every vegetable native to our region, and ate fresh veggies and fruits all year long. I love fruits and veggies...aside from a very select few, I love them all. My family hunted, so we also ate deer meat along with the usual chicken and beef and fish/seafood. I was taught to clean my plate, as well as to "try" everything that was cooked whether I thought I liked it or not. Because of this, there are few foods that I absolutely refuse to eat or try.
When I went off to college, of course, food choices changed just a wee bit. As a child, my parents provided us with fairly healthy meals for our main meals and we rarely had "junk food" even in the house. We always ate breakfast, I took my lunch to school, and supper was usually pretty balanced ,and we alwayas ate together at the table. But, once I got to college, I somehow blocked out the healthy eating lifestyle I knew and began making those not-so-good-eating choices that left me carrying a few extra pounds by the end of my freshman year. In high school, I danced on a competitive dance team, which kept me in fabulous shape, but once I got to college, I slowed down drastically, and all of a sudden, the discipline I had known somehow had dissappeared. I was working in the athletic training department keeping crazy hours with the various teams, and eating when I could....on top of my studies.
Then there was the boy. The love of my life. When you are in love you do all kinds of crazy things, and things to you know better than to do, you do anyway. I got pregnant. We got married. I gained weight. I had baby. Weight stayed. We were young, married, and with a baby, and still in school. Thus began my journey of the million yo-yo diets.
After college, we moved eight hours away from everything we knew to try and make a life for ourselves. I knew no one. My husband traveled, and I was stuck in a town by myself most of the time with a toddler. Neeless to say, my eating habits did not improve.
Fast forward to the present. Here I am. 32 years old. Married and 3 children that I adore with everything that I have in me. I am still 196lbs. I am fighting it everyday. I am losing everyday. Why? Because I have no willpower. I start off the day with the greatest of intentions, and by 10am have shot them out the door.
So, I am searching for all the right answers. I have been to the doctor, thinking something really is wrong with me and that he can give me the magical advice to get me going. But, all of my bloodwork is normal. Which to me says....it is all in my head. I am sabotaging myself. I am my own worst enemy. body, mind, and spirit. I came across a blog that had some strategies to keep myself in check with my eating habits, and so I am going to "borrow" the main point so that I can reflect on what they mean to me.
Permission to Feel
I keep my feeling bottled up. I am not very good at showing emotion. I am working on it every day. I am a happy person, for the most part, but there is, deep inside me, a lot of welled up negativity that I wish I could release. One day I will. I am working on that.
Staying in Touch With My Emotional State
I am going to try and be aware of the emotions that trigger me to eat, as well as what I am eating.
Make Taking Care of Myself a Priority
This means taking care of me. I cant be the best mom/wife/friend/teacher/etc if I am not healthy. And that means getting enough sleep, eating healthy, exercising regularly, and keeping my emotions and stress levels in check
Forgive, Assess, & Learn from Slips
I am human. I am going to fail. I need to forgive myself, forget it, learn soemthing from it and move forward.
When Triggered Reach Out
I really have a big problem with this one. Asking for help. I am very independent. I am not good at admitting my weaknesses and asking for help to get through a particularly rough patch.
So. Here is my weight loss journey. Hopefully I will find a whole new me along the way. I am going to try and blog at least a couple times a week. I wish I could be like these super bloggers who blog every day, but that is just not reasonable for me. So, I will do what I can, when I can. And that will have to be good enough.
~LA
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